Wednesday, November 27, 2013

Thankful

This time last year, I didn't feel that I had very much to be thankful for.  In fact, I spent a bit of time after Thanksgiving dinner, in my car, in my mother's driveway, crying.

This year, I still miss my Morgan and wish she was here with us.  But this year, I'm thankful for the gift of hope.  One week ago, we flew to Chicago for me to get a transabdominal cerclage (TAC).  Though I  am shuffling around with a sore belly, I now have real hope that I can carry a baby to term.  This is the first time I've felt this way in a year and a half.

While I'm laying in bed, with plenty of time to think, I wonder if I'm not being overly optimistic.  Shortly after we scheduled the surgery, I bought two little onesies, one pink, one blue, online.  And this weekend, I crocheted the sweetest little yellow baby sweater.  A little premature, but that's OK.  I like to think it's no different from the Pinterest board of baby items I started collecting before we even started trying the first time.  My perspective will likely ebb and flow over time, but to even think that I have a snowball's chance of a "normal" pregnancy is more than enough to be thankful for.

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  1. I mss you and I am so happy to hear that you had the surgery!

    Melissa P

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    1. Thanks, Melissa. I'll keep you posted when we put it to the test.

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  2. So glad to hear that you got a TAC. Prayers that it will be the key to a 'normal' pregnancy for you two! Happy Thanksgiving from D and me!

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    1. Happy Thanksgiving to the two (three!) of you as well. Hoping all is well and as "normal" as possible. =)

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    2. Thank you! So far so good. I'll be 24 weeks tomorrow, which is the same time we had to deliver Lauren. Anxiety is trying to get the best of me/us. Can't wait to hear some good news from you guys. :-)

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