A diary of bed rest, pregnancy loss, and the aftermath.
Sunday, July 29, 2012
July 27, 2012: 20 weeks + 4 days
Last night was a rough one, physically. Back ache and some cramping.
This morning, I felt better. I thought that I'd listen to the lullaby station on Pandora and have some quality time with the baby. The second song to play was "You Are My Sunshine". I call my husband Sunshine, and smiled when it came on, but the second verse (below) had me in tears. This verse pretty much sums up my days right now. I'm trying so hard to be strong and optimistic. But whenever I try to picture the future with my little girl - baking cookies, tea parties, etc., I can't help but think we may never get the chance to experience those things.
You are my sunshine My only sunshine You make me happy When the skies are grey You'll never know dear How much I love you So please don't take My sunshine Away The other night dear As I lay sleeping I dreamed I held you in my arms When I awoke dear I was mistaken And I held My head And cried
I've shed so many tears this week, I could fill a swimming pool.